I have been sick and am taking antibiotics. I sometimes have crazy dreams when I am under the weather.
Tuesday night, I dreamed I was our song leader on Sunday morning at church. Right before service was to begin, my wife and son needed me back in the baptistry area. The congregation started singing without me. That’s how I knew I was not where I was supposed to be. I ran out to the podium area and kind of joined in with everyone, easing into the song.
Next thing I knew, the service was over, and I had slept through it, as best I could tell, because I couldn’t remember leading any of the songs after the first one. The preacher wasn’t happy with me. I had fallen asleep because I was taking medicine for a cold. I phoned him to apologize, and he would not speak to me. I woke up so stressed out. And even after I woke up, I was trying to sort it all out. It was so real to me, because I really was sick and really was taking meds that made me sleepy. And then I realized it was only a dream. Whew! What a relief. I was dreaming.
I was living out a subconscious fear. My fear is that I will let people down, that I will disappoint others, that I won’t live up to other’s expectations of me. Dreams are one thing, and nightmares quite another. I often dream I am in public naked. How it happens, I don’t know. But try as I may, I can’t seem to get clothes on. Or I have a recurring dream that I am back in college, it is the last week of the semester, and I notice a class on my schedule that I didn’t realize I was enrolled in. I have done none of the reading, and have attended none of the classes, and I feel my dream of graduating slipping from my grasp.
Another dream? I am aging out, and have never married, and I realize if I am going to get a wife, I am going to have to get busy. I take an inventory of all the women I know, trying to close the deal with one of them. And then I wake up next to my wife. I am married, and have been for nearly 34 years. Crazy stuff.
Father in heaven, thank You for providing for us the things we need, and thank You for calming our fears, in Jesus’ name, Amen!