|Proverbs 18:10 – “The name of the Lord is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe.”|
I woke up this morning wondering, does God really love me? There are two lies I’ve struggled with my whole life – ‘I’m unlovable‘ and ‘I’ll never be safe.’ It’s a weary and lonely walk when I travel down that road.
Normally I listen to the Bible app as I get ready for the day but I chose music instead this morning. I think God likes to give me messages through music because I like to talk at Him and music forces me to listen. The song Dancing on the Waves came on and wow, I’ll tell you this song was made for me! “You are my masterpiece” “I did it all for you” Thank you God. I heard you. Later at church we were asked in the sermon, What are you asking God for? Are you asking for something that’s manageable? I will pray big & bold prayers for others but not for me. Great things are for other people, not for me. I realize, I hear God’s truth in my head, but in my heart, I’ve yet to fully receive it. I struggle so with this stronghold that even when my prayers are answered, I feel like an imposter. Like it will be yanked away once I’m caught. So I asked the Holy Spirit, ‘what do I need to be bold about and how can I partner with you to make this happen’? I turn the music on and Lauren Daigle sings to me, “Here’s my heart, Lord. Speak what is true.” Thank you God. I heard you. So now I can come with passion and boldness with my requests, not because I earned or deserve it, but because I know that God is good.
Jeremiah 31:3 “I have loved you with an everlasting love.”
– Martes Campbell